Is God real. Im ready to burn the bible to ashes.?

I'm so sick bible toteing bastards with this ****. If God is so real then why does he want to see us suffer. The whole bible is a joke to me. You really expect me to believe that a woman just mysteriously got pregnant out the blue. Come the **** on people. If God is so real why the hell would turn water to wine and then turn around and say alcohol is a sin. Way to show us he's real don't you think. I'd rather praise "Satan" cuz he has been there for me more than his nemesis. I been trying to get a job for the longest now and I have lost all hope. Might as well sell drugs or something. Like I said. The "devil" has more opportunities than God it seems...better yet I know he does. Don't get up here and tell me to look within myself and bs unless you want a good cursing out cuz I'm feeling reckless now. Where the hell is this God. Chilling up in Heaven looking down on us watching us suffer while he records our sins in this big *** book? Then ppl wanna believe in this King James bible ish. Really? The same man who condoned the slavery of Blacks that lasted for sambhar near 400 years? Get real. If God is real than prove it. And don't even tell me to go read the bible cuz I dont wanna touch it.